Happy New Year everyone. Yes I know it's a surprise to hear from me as the dust has greatly accumulated on the Hearts of Style blog, but I'm here today blowing off the dust and typing away!
2015 was a wild year! God greatly blessed me with a second son and man is he awesome!! He is the pillsbury dough boy in live form and nothing but snuggly love 😍
It's truly mind blowing to me that I can have such crazy love for both of my boys! I thought I couldn't love another as strongly as I love Brooks, but now that Bradley is here it's almost like that love exploded and then exploded again 😜 I am so humbled that I was chosen to mother these two young men and I pray everyday that I teach them all that God wants me too.
Since it is resolution time I have been thinking and reflecting on all that I learned over the past year (and years). As we walked into church this past Sunday morning my mind was racing about all the things I felt like I needed to change or do differently in the new year. I was eager to hear the sermon in hopes that it might help me paint a clear picture of how to make this year different than all the others. I was singing loud during worship to one of my new favorite songs and all of the sudden a huge realization hit me like a ton of bricks. The word "PERFECTION" was playing like a broken record over and over again in my mind. This is a word that has always challenged me and driven me, but it's also a word that has crippled me and broken me at many times...
Pause: Yes, I know that this is a fashion blog but those of you who know me well know that Hearts of Style was born out of the idea that my love for fashion and for making people feel their best could be a ministry for me! So occasionally I'm going to need to use this blog as a sounding board for all my thoughts in hopes that it may be significant or mean something to someone reading. Thanks for understanding 😜
Back to "PERFECTION"... I realized that every year I make resolutions and set goals and then as soon as I fail, even if it's just a little bit, I feel like I'm done. Toast. No sense in starting over because I have already messed everything up! GEEEZZZ, even reading my thoughts makes me think? "What's wrong with you woman? That's crazy!" But it's the truth! And it pains me even more to say that I feel like I have lived a very long part of my life feeling this way! Unfortunately that means there has been A LOT of time wasted! Time where I have let some minor mess up and Satan take me down and shake up all of my plans 😡
Not this year! 2016 is a fresh start and a clean slate to start retraining my mind and my habits! It is sad for me to say it, but, I. CANT. BE. PERFECT. I'm human and covered in flesh but it's ok because my heavily father has got the whole " PERFECTION" thing down 🙌🏻. My imperfection only ignites HIS perfection by exemplifying grace and mercy in my life when I fail! He is steady cheering me on and believing that even tho I stumble the best is yet to come!
No, I am NOT going to stop trying my hardest to be the BEST wife, mother, business owner, daughter, and friend that I can be because that is what I am called to do... "Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters,since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving." (Colossians 3:23-24) Because it's Christ that I ultimately long to please I am going to start 2016 off much differently. I'm not setting myself up to fail by thinking that "I" can do all that I want to do and do it to "perfection" in my own strength, I am believing and proclaiming that Jesus IS perfect inside of me and that tho MY flesh my fail, He is the strength of my heart and my portion forever! ( psalm 73:26)
I so desperately want to make an impact in this life... As a wife,and mother, and on all the people I come in contact with through Hearts of Style!! So, this year I resolve to Let Christ be bigger when I feel weak and failing and I'm confident that with that as my focus, it will be an awesome year! I refuse to waste anymore time being held captive by the enemy and his sneaky lies or by my own measure of failure in regards to the goals I set for myself.
I hope that as you are making resolutions you will show yourself some grace too and know that if at first you don't succeed, just try and try again because we are never "failures" in Gods eyes!
I'm attaching the song that I mentioned singing in church. The lyrics are everything!! My battle cry for the year!! I hope you enjoy it too.
Please look forward to more blogging from me this year...Mostly about fashion but a little sermon here and there 😜 Love to you all and Happy 2016!
I Trust It All - Brett Stanfill